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egypturnashI wonder if next month will be as interesting as this one has been. If this was a one-time confluxion of events good and bad and not-sure-yet. If it was heralding a new, much more eventful life, making up for the grey void I inhabited for many years. One month? A few months? A year? A few years?
Every time in the past several weeks I think I'm about to be able to stop and think for a few days, something else happens. From inside or from outside. I feel like I just want to pull back from everyone and everything for a week and do some sorting out, some asking and answering of questions. But... I can't, I have to start hunting for work immediately upon getting back to LA (hoping my computer's fixed and I have the money to pick it up), including wild hopeful chances I'm toying with, I have to try and make some sense out of my increasingly convoluted personal life, I have to start running the Red Queen's race of finances again - and things were tight enough during this week home with relative visits, friend visits, and everything else, that I'm not sure I really stopped it, just ran a different course for a few days.
No specific looking back over 2003 for me. I'm too discombobulated right now. It was an interesting year, where I took some big chances. None of them have come to a conclusion yet; some of them won't for several years, one way or another; some are more immediate but hard to decide, some are somewhat consequences of others.
Every time in the past several weeks I think I'm about to be able to stop and think for a few days, something else happens. From inside or from outside. I feel like I just want to pull back from everyone and everything for a week and do some sorting out, some asking and answering of questions. But... I can't, I have to start hunting for work immediately upon getting back to LA (hoping my computer's fixed and I have the money to pick it up), including wild hopeful chances I'm toying with, I have to try and make some sense out of my increasingly convoluted personal life, I have to start running the Red Queen's race of finances again - and things were tight enough during this week home with relative visits, friend visits, and everything else, that I'm not sure I really stopped it, just ran a different course for a few days.
No specific looking back over 2003 for me. I'm too discombobulated right now. It was an interesting year, where I took some big chances. None of them have come to a conclusion yet; some of them won't for several years, one way or another; some are more immediate but hard to decide, some are somewhat consequences of others.
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Date: 2003-12-31 01:23 pm (UTC)