more angst
Dec. 11th, 2003 01:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
egypturnashI suppose it's better to regret things you've done rather than things you haven't done. I think. I've spent a long time vaguely regretting chances not taken, and it's been a dull, quiet, constant ache. Now I'm doing things I know I may regret horribly, and the swirling consequences are tough. I don't know how to deal with some of them. I don't know if anyone really does. I certainly don't.
But I think when I die, if I have time to look back over my life, if it's not some sudden unexpected out-of-nowhere like it was for my father, I'd rather regret having caused storms and had some moments of real happiness instead of having just lived a long quiet grey.
(ps. last entry was just pure silliness.)
But I think when I die, if I have time to look back over my life, if it's not some sudden unexpected out-of-nowhere like it was for my father, I'd rather regret having caused storms and had some moments of real happiness instead of having just lived a long quiet grey.
(ps. last entry was just pure silliness.)
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Date: 2003-12-11 09:11 pm (UTC)Fortune favors the brave.
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Date: 2003-12-11 11:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-12 08:31 am (UTC)"Yeah, I was brave at that battle! That's why I have no teeth, lost my legs and occasionaly start screaming profanities at passing squirrels. YOULITTERATBASTARD%&(*%%&%(*%^(&^%!!!!!!"
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Date: 2003-12-11 09:49 pm (UTC)"Dammit, I wish I didn't do so many THINGS."
Risks are good.
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Date: 2003-12-11 11:23 pm (UTC)*giggle* I hope I have a chance to say that.