job hunt: crappy edition

[egypturnash]

I just went and dropped off applications at a couple of local chain bookstores. I anticipate two questions if I end up with an actual human-contact interview: "why do you want to work here with past history like this?" and "how come you don't look like a Paul?"

One is simple, one is not, and I'm not sure which is which.

Why a bookstore (or other such job - I'm thinking of the local art store, too)? Because I'm tired of my so-called career. Sure, if someone called me with a Flash animation/hacking job, I'd take it, but I really find it hard to push myself to look for one, despite it being a lot of what I've been paid for the past few years. Even if it probably is something that could get me decent pay, if I got work, um, anywhere but perpetually-broke Spümcø. I keep thinking of trying to drift into some sort of freelance art thing, if I can build the self-discipline, and something that was low-stress and paid a decent chunk of my bills might help that a lot. (Yes, I know, it's pretty gruelling and takes time to build a rep; I can read between the lines of the LJs of those of you who are freelancers.) Flash keeps on feeling like a trap.

Why don't I look like a Paul? Treatment for gender dysphoria. Easy to explain, scary as hell to some people. If someone interviewing me is painfully and phobically straight, any other reasons to not hire me get more important, I'm quite sure!

Anyway. Maybe one of the leads I got last month will pan out, maybe I'll get off my ass and send stuff out to game companies or Pixar and get lucky. Or who knows what. I can hope.

Comments

[beetiger.livejournal.com]

If you need a reference from someone who's done at least a small job with you as a freelancer, let me know. I'd be happy to do that.

[shatterstripes.livejournal.com]

Oooh, thank you! I'll remember to put you in the currently too-short "satisfied customers" list.

[dustmeat.livejournal.com]

I too am applying at a Bookstore.

[dv-girl.livejournal.com]

Easy out, just tell them it's a typo and it's supposed to be 'Paula' but you go by 'Peggy'. It'll work. People are gullible. ^_^

[ataxiapb.livejournal.com]

I'm going to be looking for more obscure jobs. Overnight watch person maybe. Something where I can sit and hide and read, all while working. I've tried bookstores before, but they're usually overwhelemed with applications, comparatively, I noticed.